When my grandma passed in 2005, and then my aunt/second mom in 2008, I turned to food both times. Before my grandma passed I had managed to kick my Coke habit for about two years. When she passed I gave myself permission to drink it again because "I needed the comfort." You don't get over 250 lbs overweight without being an emotional eater. The way I was able to grieve and deal with stress and sadness this week while maintaining what I need to do to be healthy was a huge accomplishment for me. I'm not going to put my health in jeopardy because I'm sad. All of my grandparents have been extremely supportive and proud of me. My grandfather who passed away often commented on and shared my blog posts. In fact, the last thing thing he shared on Facebook was my social media post about reaching 130 lbs lost. He wouldn't want me to go backwards, and I definitely will not be going backwards. This is honestly even bigger of an accomplishment than the 130 lbs I've lost because it proves to me I truly have changed and can continue on this path for life.